I rose to the news that you transitioned.
After days and weeks and months of figuring,
of feathers kissing your skin,
children and grandchildren's hands moving gently on your softest skin,
on your tiny, precious physical self.
You are free from pain and suffering.
Your spirit soaring high, you are larger than life.
Queen. 
Loved by so many. All who you encountered.
Generous with your very you smile.
A brilliant wit, a naïve-seeming openness.
A twinkle.
Fiercely compassionate, indignant of injustice. 
Brave of tongue, unwilling to hold back truth.
Able to see the light in each of us.
Especially within your beautiful, creative tribe. 

Now you breathe in peace. 
Thoughts quieted.
Your work is done, 
and you rise.
Letting us know how it is out there, on the other side, in your ways. 
Your magic, only magnified. 
We wear your impact on us,
all who you loved,
like a quilt of a thousand colors over our shoulders
as we stand in the cool of a September dawn,
in awe of the beauty of the sunrise.

No matter what the challenge, when we feel disconnected from ourselves the challenge is heightened. Problems large and small. Humans older and younger. Whether grief, anxiety, infertility, abandonment, work stress, school stress, pandemic fatigue, parenting, being a human, being a kid. When we feel most "unmoored," most in need of grounding and centering, most afraid, even, we are usually also feeling disconnected to ourselves. 

No matter what is happening in your life in this moment, I invite you to ask yourself: What do I need, right here, right now? (Is it peace? joy?) What do I want? (Love? contentment? a family? to belong? abundance? All of the above? Or is it unclear and you seek clarity?)  

Notice what shows up for you here. And if your mind is going 100 miles an hour, or even if it isn't, invite acceptance.  Whatever's showing up just is. You are a human with a human experience. Let go of judgement. You don't have all the answers. You are experiencing something very difficult. It's okay to not know. To be confused. Notice, and add a layer of acceptance. 

And then extend self-compassion. Be gentle on you. Be kind, even. Breathe. You don't need to feel calm (though that sounds well and good), but you do need to feel connected - to your own voice, your own needs, desires, even your discontent. If you have an unsettled feeling in your stomach, a nagging ache, a craving in your heart, listen to it. Only when you listen to it can you decide your response. If it is grief you are experiencing, the challenge might look like the greatest sorrow. Unfixable. So whatever is showing up, honor it. Honor the loss, the hurt, the suffering. It deserves to be honored.

So, (1) Notice your need in the present moment. (2) Accept what's showing up. (3) Extend self-compassion. And then (4) Shift to connection. Put down the phone. Remove yourself from distractions, listen to your innermost voice, maybe even place your hands on your heart. Acknowledge: My feelings are valid, my truth is my truth, my experience is my own. 

This is the path to healing: Noticing, accepting, being kind to you, and in that context, listening and connecting to YOU. You'll better understand your needs, you'll notice the wisdom of your life experiences, maybe you'll hear the language of your heart. You'll be able to get perspective, experience yourself in new ways, and begin feeling grounded and centered. Connected to you. You are so worth it.

How do you want to live your life?

Is your life filled with passion and compassion? Humor and style? Generosity and kindness? Not for anyone else to see or judge, but just for you. Self-compassion, loving kindness, enjoying your own way of being. 

Or do these things seem frivolous? Because just breathing, at times, is a major chore. 

I invite you to lift up, out of your current situation - the dominant narrative of your current life experience - and see beyond the problems. Just for a moment. Let go of the current major challenge you are facing and appreciate YOU. How much you struggled to get here, how much more you want out of life, how much you have to offer. Breathe into that for a minute.

Are you struggling with finding a way to get from surviving to thriving? Whatever your age, your situation, your life story,  I am here to help you get to the goodness of life. Using narrative therapy, play therapy, creative expression, and mindfulness approaches, I support you to get clear about your goals, understand your responses to difficult life experiences, and value your strengths and coping skills. I will help you envision a future where you are THRIVING and re-connected to what brings you most joy. 

I love this quote from Brene' Brown. "When we deny the story, it defines us. When we own the story, we can write a brave new ending." 

Too often we feel like a story that we didn't write - or even approve of - defines us. We grow up with other people's stories of who we are, feeling like we have no choice in the matter. Hating the stories, sometimes, and even believing stories that are complete untruths.

When we own our story - our STORIES - of who we are - of who we want to be. When we give ourselves permission to write our own preferred narrative of who we are in the present moment - of who we are in the multiplicity of our identities - all our different environments - whether with family, in school, in our careers, in romantic relationships, in pursuing our dreams, in play - we can write brave new endings and infinite new beginnings. 

As a counselor committed to supporting trauma survivors on their healing journey, I was drawn to narrative therapy because - from its foundation - it is trauma-informed. Key concepts of narrative therapy align with those of trauma-informed counseling. Both prioritize transparency, collaboration, empowerment, choice, voice and social justice.

When you are considering counseling, it is important to know that you will not be judged by your responses to trauma. Instead, the meaning that you've given to the traumatic experiences in your life will be explored with you.  If you are consumed by certain experiences of your life, and you feel stuck, I will examine with you just how this problem is impacting your life. I will help you explore the times in your life when you were resilient, when you felt most free, and help you celebrate and learn from those moments.

What you feel you missed or do not have in your life tells a lot about what you value most. Is it connection, love, being respected, feeling fulfilled? I will listen to your stories, help you externalize your problem, thicken your alternate narratives, and support you to become who you want to be and how you want to feel right now.